holy fucking shit

my crush drove me home, that’s it

love

 god how i wish to be someone who doesnt have a difficult time with love, how i wish i would be someone who cannot feel the worries on why love never comes to me, i wanna know how it feels like when a boy comes up to me and confesses his love to me. everytime i get a single chance, i always fuck it up, why? i wanna know too, i wanna feel it too, i have the guts to say i might be cursed for not experiencing teenage love, ik im only 15 but jesus fuck, 15 years of no romance sounds disgusting

i might not be loved enough to think that romance is the only way in life, yet im really desperate

everyone around me seems to have something going on and i hate that, i hate how im always different in a negative way, i never see or understand things in the same time as them.

am i not beautiful enough or what? im trying my hardest yet i still cant

i just hope things will get better for me

highschool

 hey it’s like second day of mpls and i’m like a week or two away from starting highschool

sorry i just kinda forgot abt this blog but im updating things now

i’ve picked up quite a few fixations n one of them is resident evil, ive been into horror games lately n i might get into fatal frame n silent hill. also having a huge crush on a fictional character till u just have to spend money for it is fine righttt??? 

okay but lots of my friends have moved out :(, and like i just dont know what to do now, i hooe hs is nice, bye bye! im sick writing this so nightt