sighh

 this is so random but its my blog so who cares

i wanna experience teenage love :( like every1 around me has a partner which they can tell stories to n just find comfort but guess what i cant fucking experience that cause idk how to accept feelings or just have one like a genuine one, i think trauma really fucked me up cause i cant see a future where i would be happy with someone or that person would be happy with me, i hate this so much, i get rejected over n over till im fucking sick of it, time is running out for me n the only people i could cherish in an unexplainable way is bts like ik that shit's corny as hell but u gotta understand me at some point 😭